Nr. 49

It’s been ‘research day’ today. To be honest the day started extremely late as I didn’t really fall asleep until maybe 11am and woke up at 4pm (I know!). 

However, luckily, I usually need only a few seconds to really wake up so I was able to do some serious research on writing and self publishing. I read so many great articles and blog posts about it which had tons of useful tips and tricks I didn’t know about. So I’m feeling quite giddy today thinking of a potential future in writing. It’s still such a far away dream and may perhaps never surmount to anything substantial, but I think I owe it to myself to explore any side that has sparked a tiny bit of passion. I haven’t felt that for years, so to finally discover that I actually like something is quite precious these days. 

I’m still struggling with extremely low confidence in my writing capabilities. These blog posts aren’t edited and I write them in one go. I never look back nor do I read them. It’s the only way for me to actually hit the publish button. In other words I need to gain some confidence before setting out on a writes’ quest. But I am emboldened to read about people who self published successfully yet still having those same fears and insecurities I struggle with. 

So to sum up: I’m feeling optimistic today. Haven’t felt that in a long time. Gosh.